Refection of my deeds

Salam to all.

How are you my friends and relatives. As I write this, Friday prayer is on air ..the imam is reciting verses of Al-Quran with his melodious voice. It makes me so calm and remembers the Originator of the words. Actually I just visited Prof.Muhd Kamil blog, the UiTM Segamat campus director.. I admire him for his open declaration of reform..well you would know this if you read his Haji Travellogde. Then it makes me to think about myself especially with all the events that happened which sometimes are trying and needs my preserverance.

I considered the events as tribulations of being a human being and especially so for a person doing Phd. I was once being asked "what are your tribulations while doing Phd". Promptly I said, "normal things.household, children, husband and maid". I thought I can handle..then my maid suddenly wanted to go back to Indonesia after getting married with my permission! There you go, with some money she owed me she just left. Wow how to handle this, this son of mine only 3 years old plus..and never went to a kindy yet..and he is a person that needs special attention with tantrums and things like that..My decison was to bring him with me to the office and continue doing my work. Actually no intelectual thinking could be done throughout the period of February and March due to the constant nagging and attention seeker of this little boy.. Alhamdulillah later I found a montessori near my house that suit to his need. He likes the surrounding and teachers as well..One problem solved, actually a worrying one..

Life went on, with the daily routine..then suddenly I woke up at 6.00 a.m on the 2nd of July and told by my husband that my Kelisa was stolen. I looked out the window..yes it was gone.. God..No tears but almost..My first car was in memory.. Some maniacs stole the car then may be ransacked the parts, burned and left by the roadside at the Sungai Buloh highway. These stories I gathered from the police who came to my house on the same day I logded a police report. I never wanted to see the car..it hurts me.

So after almost three months, we, the family are still managing our chores with one car only. I can only consider buying a new car after receiving the compensation money from Takaful Etiqa..

" Do men think that they will be left alone on saying 'we believe' and they will not be tested? (29: 2)

Reflecting on the two events, I think I have to accept Qada' and Qadar and at the same time continously finding ways and means to solve these problems. There are people who only own motorcycles and even some rely on public transportation so what the hack..with owning only one van..life goes on.

People in Palestine are suffering more than me, they have to struggle everyday to get food, medicine and even going to school is known to be 'a no sure return journey'. Allah the Almighty has all the rights to test his servants..However I pray that "Layukallifullahhunaf san Illa usa'ha"(2:286) : On no soul do Allah place a burden greater than it can bear".

Grab the chance of the Lailatul Qadar. Rewards doing the ibadah on the night better than a thousand month..One ustaz told our family..from his learned teachers ..since Ist Ramadhan is on Monday..the Lailatul Qadar will be on the night of 21st Ramadhan..Allahua'llam, only Allah knows best.. I only convey the message..

Till then, Wassallam
PUZIAH

A weekend in the month of Ramadhan

Salam to all

Today is the 8th day of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah, praises to Allah , the One grants this opportunity to bestow his mercy on us his servants. Ramadhan is a month of 'barakah' , so grab the chance. It is not a month for us to find excuses for staying inactive, instead increasing efforts to upgrade iman and amal.

Lately , besides the phd academic things..I was busy helping my NGO's colleages in JIM, planning, organising and executing some community projects. Alhamdullillah, yesterday(sunday) we mangaged to hold one project at Masjid Sultan Sallehuddin Aziz Shah, Shah Alam. The objective of the program was to inculcate true understanding and perception about Islam . The target audience was not the people of the same faith. In a short survey conducted by volunteers, including myself at busy shopping complexes in Klang and Subang Jaya, the findings are eye-openers for me. The majority about 68 %(out of 69 respondents) considers there are some positive aspects about Islam which they like. From the interview some respondents said : " I like the elements of respecting family members and elderly relatives among muslim".."practice muslim do not do bad things'.."I have no problems with muslim women wearing 'tudung'..they do not look sexy(male respondent)" ..."I like my muslim friends"..."I pity muslim women..I am afraid they feel hot in tudung".." all people are the same..all religions..some bad some good"..."all people in Malaysia live in harmony"..

Nine of my respondents (out of 11) received our little brochures about some detail explanation of Islam with no qualms. I was happy about that and deep inside my heart, I will always pray that one day they will accept the truth. Generally they are hungry for true information, not as being depicted by world media..(you know what I mean)..

May this Ramadhan Allah showers his mercy to all of us, the muslims..
Allah humma innaka afunwun karimun tuhihibbul'afwa fu'anni
(May Allah forgive our sins)